Monday, April 24, 2006

“Living your dream is a full-time job”

Our beautiful rock star friends—the Kents—were describing their tour schedule and Seth said something that struck me. “Just because you’re living your dream doesn’t mean that it doesn’t feel like a full time-job.” The funny thing about living your dream is that you don’t morph into a superhero with superhuman powers. When I dreampt about the dream job I was my dream self while I worked it. Instead I have the same limitations and shortcomings that I had before.

The past few weeks I’ve been learning about empowering rather than taking power. I say learning because it sounds more positive than saying I’ve been making lots of mistakes--which is closer to the truth. I’ve acted way too American in several instances when I should have been more sensitive, should have been slower to speak and quicker to listen. My colleagues have been patient while I try to get my foot out of my mouth—a place--I’m afraid I put it too often. I’m learning to stay in my role as an advisor and support efforts of a multi-cultural team. At the moment I’m enjoying the freedom of holding work with open hands. I find that when I let go of the need to control everything my inability to do so isn’t nearly as frustrating. I did yoga during lunch, so we’ll see how long this moment lasts.


Jim said...

Holly and Ben, I continue to be humbled, instructed, and enriched by the gritty truth and depth of wisdom that you are learning and teaching as you go about, going about. I hope it's a long (long!) time before you stand in the Glorious Presence, but when you do I have no doubt but that you will hear the words "well done good and faithful...and honest and real...servants". Thank you for sharing your unfolding story, and the stories of those with whom you are sharing breath; in doing so you give us all a great gift and much needed instruction in how we all should go about going about, where-ever we may be. With ever prayerful embrace, jim

Omar Basawad said...

Holly & Ben Porter - let Dan translate this for you:

Apwoyo totwal! Cheng-ngoro, abino limmo wu kunno. Ka Obanga omaro.

An amaro Lango kede Uganda totwal! Amaro Adwari. Amaro Teboke. Amaro Aloi. Amaro Omoro. Amaro Kamdini. Amaro Lira. Lango en paco! Nga pe mito paco?

Obanga bed kedwu. May God give you peace!

Anonymous said...


Would you consider adding a link to your site in May? The MCC Web site has a Photo Gallery from Uganda.

Larry Guengerich, Akron, PA

Anita said...

Hola from your former orientation buddy in Santa Cruz, Bolivia! It's been too long since I checked out your blog, but I enjoyed catching up on your lives and work.

Your statement about holding work with open hands really hit home for me. I'm going through a similar learning (i.e., mistake-making) process myself, and I was encouraged by your reflections on the subject. I too am learning the joy of caring enough to let go.